9 week ultrasound

The prenatal clinic I (will) go to doesn't see patients until somewhere between 10 and 12 weeks and the first ultrasound scheduled is either a NT ultrasound (if you want one) or a dating scan both of which take place around 12 weeks based on your last menstrual period (LMP). I didn't think I could wait that long to check and see how things are doing. So I booked a private ultrasound for this past Sunday. It's not a diagnostic clinic so I don't have official medical confirmation, but things are looking good.

Based on my LMP I should have been 9 weeks 3 days and the baby looked more like 9 weeks exactly or maybe even a few days less. There was a healthy heartbeat though (174) and the technician said that there was nothing to suggest that there was anything abnormal about this pregnancy.

I really wanted an ultrasound now because last time I had spotting at 11.5 weeks and I had an ultrasound that revealed baby had died around 8 or 8.5 weeks. I didn't think I could go through that again, it was really upsetting to me that I was wakling around for 3 weeks with all of my pregnancy symptoms being all happy and announcing on Christmas Day to our family when really things had already gone horribly wrong. So this recent ultrasound means I have at least gotten to that point with this pregnancy and maybe past it.

My husband is super relieved and was teary when he heard/saw the heartbeat. For me for some reason, while I am a little relieved it didn't give me as much peace of mind as I hoped. We had an ultrasound at 6 weeks for the last pregnancy and saw the heartbeat that time too and what the ultrasound tech and doctor both called a normal pregnancy, and that obviously went wrong a few weeks later. I am still scared this could happen again.

My fingers and toes are crossed that everything is ok this time. I have my first prenatal appointment on June 1st, so just over a week away. At that point they will schedule our NT ultrasound for about a week after that. Like I said I started spotting at 11.5 weeks last time, so I think that will be another big milestone for me to start relaxing. Please send me and my little one all your prayers and good wishes! The more good karma for us out in the universe the better!