Last Tuesday my sister had her baby, and I have a niece. It sucks that I am living on the other side of the country and will have to wait a few months to meet my new family member! She looks adorable in the pictures though, and we have been able to skype a few times. It makes me so anxious to have my little one arrive!!!
I am officially starting maternity leave at the end of this week. I will only be 32 weeks, and still feel entirely capable of working, but I have gotten next to no hours (0 last week, half a day this week) and every week I go without working reduces the amount I will get in maternity leave pay. It sucks that when I feel like working (now!) there aren't any hours, but taking leave early means I will also have to go back to work early. I have been throwing myself a little pity party over this. I want to spend the whole first year with my child and not have to go back at 10 months! I am starting to feel ok about it though. I am very thankful that I live in Canada where a 12 month maternity leave with some pay is standard. When I was complaining to my Mom about it she reminded me that in the States it is 6 weeks or sometimes 12 weeks. When she had us almost 30 years ago it was only 3 months in Canada. So I guess I have to realize that 10 months with my baby is really fabulous considering what you get in some other countries.
Of course, with very little work and starting mat leave I am suffering from a bad case of cabin fever. Seriously, I feel like I never leave this house! I don't have the energy or motivation to be the perfect little housewife right now, so it's not like I am spending my days cleaning and cooking! lol! Everytime I leave the house to run errands I end up spending money, I mean financially we are fine, but I feel guilty spending money when I am not really bringing much in. My dog is pretty happy though as she is getting twice as mnay walks as usual!!! I have done a few crafts and even made homemade bread. Maybe in a few weeks once I am closer to the due date I will be content to sit on my ass at home lol!
Wednesday, 26 October 2011
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
Hospital visits, the waiting game and hormones!
This weekend we had a somewhat uneventful trip to the hospital. I had a really busy day on Saturday running errands, cleaning the house and getting ready for dinner as we were having another couple over. (They cancelled last minute of course! Grrrrr! But that is another story!) So by around 4 pm I was having some sharp pains on the top right of my baby bump. Almost like I'd been punched there. After resting for a bit it started to feel better, and only hurt when I touched that area, kind of like a bruise. Around 8pm, once we knew we weren't having company for dinner we (Hubby and I) ran out to the mall to pick up a wedding shower gift for a friend and the pain got worse again. The pain was really not excrutiating by any means, but since it was pretty unusual it kinda freaked me out.
I googled the possible causes, and came up with some useless possibilities namely:
1. Gall bladder pain - had my gall bladder removed 2.5 years ago, so not the problem
2. Baby has been kicking that area - well I have a high and anterior placenta, so I can never feel baby kick in that spot
Of course, then I got to thinking that something was wrong with either my placenta or scar tissue in that area from my gall bladder surgery. I decided to call my doctor (the clinic I go always has a doctor on at the hospital and you can page them at any time and they will call you back and answer your questions). She was nice, told me not to worry but that I should come in to the hospital and she would give me a quick check to make sure everything was fine.
Around 10pm we get in the car and go to the hospital, turns out to be a way bigger production than expected. There is paperwork, hospital bands, I get given a bed. After waiting, fetal monitoring, checking my cervix, blood work and urine tests I finally am given an answer......you're right, that is weird, we don't know what it is. Seriously??? Basically they said I wasn't in preterm labor (I knew that, I wasn't have contractions!) and that if the pain got worse to come in the next morning and they would do an ultrasound. So we finally made it home around 3am. I was so tired! I am super happy that I got to hear my little one's heart beat and I know he is doing ok in there, so I guess the peace of mind was worth it, but seriously? 5 hours of waiting and tests just to hear 'we don't know'?? Ok, rant over! lol!
This past week or so I have also been very hormonal, it feels like this pregnancy is taking forever and I just want it to be December already! I have been crying at pretty much everything, tv shows, songs on the radio, just random events in life in general! The worst part is, I am still logical enough to know that I am crying at something that doesn't warrant tears, but I can't stop myself. I feel like a huge teary whale!!! Anyway, that's my news...thought I would share this cartoon as it pretty much sums up my emotional state right now.
I googled the possible causes, and came up with some useless possibilities namely:
1. Gall bladder pain - had my gall bladder removed 2.5 years ago, so not the problem
2. Baby has been kicking that area - well I have a high and anterior placenta, so I can never feel baby kick in that spot
Of course, then I got to thinking that something was wrong with either my placenta or scar tissue in that area from my gall bladder surgery. I decided to call my doctor (the clinic I go always has a doctor on at the hospital and you can page them at any time and they will call you back and answer your questions). She was nice, told me not to worry but that I should come in to the hospital and she would give me a quick check to make sure everything was fine.
Around 10pm we get in the car and go to the hospital, turns out to be a way bigger production than expected. There is paperwork, hospital bands, I get given a bed. After waiting, fetal monitoring, checking my cervix, blood work and urine tests I finally am given an answer......you're right, that is weird, we don't know what it is. Seriously??? Basically they said I wasn't in preterm labor (I knew that, I wasn't have contractions!) and that if the pain got worse to come in the next morning and they would do an ultrasound. So we finally made it home around 3am. I was so tired! I am super happy that I got to hear my little one's heart beat and I know he is doing ok in there, so I guess the peace of mind was worth it, but seriously? 5 hours of waiting and tests just to hear 'we don't know'?? Ok, rant over! lol!
This past week or so I have also been very hormonal, it feels like this pregnancy is taking forever and I just want it to be December already! I have been crying at pretty much everything, tv shows, songs on the radio, just random events in life in general! The worst part is, I am still logical enough to know that I am crying at something that doesn't warrant tears, but I can't stop myself. I feel like a huge teary whale!!! Anyway, that's my news...thought I would share this cartoon as it pretty much sums up my emotional state right now.
Tuesday, 27 September 2011
come on third trimester
This Thursday I will be 28 weeks, officially starting my third trimester. I can't freaking wait. Seriously maybe it's because I am so impatient to meet this little one or perhaps because I am not that busy with work but the week milestones seem to tick by so slowly. Actually I am more excited about 30 weeks, for some reason that just seems closer. I feel like I am getting pretty huge and when people ask how far along I am December seems like such a far away answer. Hopefully once we get into October and I can say I'm into the 30-ish weeks it won't feel like such an eternity.
On Sunday I visited my good friend and her new little baby boy. He is so adorable, it makes my heart ache to meet my little boy! It's amazing how fast they grow. Her little 3 week old is so remarkably different from our other close friends 8 month old girl. The little boy is such a newborn and so little and helpless and the older little girl is about to crawl and eats baby food and seems like she is becoming a real little person. Looking at both of them I find it so hard to believe that I am growing a real person in my belly right now!
We have been thinking about names and I think we have settled on Owen for a first name. It is pretty classic but not super common or super weird. Who knows we might change a few more times, anyone have any comments on that name? I'd love some feedback :)
On Sunday I visited my good friend and her new little baby boy. He is so adorable, it makes my heart ache to meet my little boy! It's amazing how fast they grow. Her little 3 week old is so remarkably different from our other close friends 8 month old girl. The little boy is such a newborn and so little and helpless and the older little girl is about to crawl and eats baby food and seems like she is becoming a real little person. Looking at both of them I find it so hard to believe that I am growing a real person in my belly right now!
We have been thinking about names and I think we have settled on Owen for a first name. It is pretty classic but not super common or super weird. Who knows we might change a few more times, anyone have any comments on that name? I'd love some feedback :)
Thursday, 15 September 2011
Back to reality but life is good!
Well, I haven't posted in forever! Mainly because I spent almost my entire summer adventuring around the world! My husband and I went on an epic summer vacation which included a mediterranean cruise to Italy, Greece, Turkey, Israel and Egypt. It was the adventure of a lifetime. I am so glad we went, definitely the type of vacation that we won't be able to do (or afford) bringing along kids! Plus, now I can tell our little one that while you were in my belly I rode a camel at the pyramids!!! Lots of people might say that doing such crazy things while pregnant isn't good, but I say f*ck that! My first pregnancy I was crazy strict perfectionist about everything, wouldn't even take my dog for a walk if it was a little snowy out, and that ended in heartbreak, so clearly living life on eggshells doesn't prevent tragedy it just makes your life pass you by while you are waiting for the good stuff to happen. After our trip we also went to my hometown for a few weeks to relax and hang out with my family.
As for our little one......he is doing great! That's right, it's a boy! We found out mid-August! We haven't told anyone that we know, everytime someone asks us we just tell them we are not finding out. My husband really wanted to know and I didn't have the willpower to resist lol! The reason we aren't sharing that information with our family and friends is because we both really wanted that moment of announcing his sex and name to everyone after the delivery. We haven't decided on a name yet though!
I was pretty nervous for how our little one was doing after our trip because I wasn't feeling a whole lot of movement, but the ultrasound revealed that I have an anterior placenta which can muffle the feeling of movements. Now that I am a few weeks further along (26 today!) I can feel the movement much better and it is very comforting!
I haven't been working much at all, this year I am a substitute teacher. There have been a lot of cutbacks in our school system so there were no permanent of temporary jobs available so they placed me on the sub list. Being early in the school year I haven't been working most days as teachers aren't really going off sick or scheduling appointments etc. yet. The extended vacation has been kind of nice. Luckily my husband has a good job so we can financially handle it, but not working means not getting paid and my salary definitely helps us afford the fun stuff in life, like dinners out and epic summer vacations, so hopefully things pick up again soon!
Hope all is well with everyone out there in internet land! I hope to update more regularly now that fall is here and my fun summer travel has come to an end!
As for our little one......he is doing great! That's right, it's a boy! We found out mid-August! We haven't told anyone that we know, everytime someone asks us we just tell them we are not finding out. My husband really wanted to know and I didn't have the willpower to resist lol! The reason we aren't sharing that information with our family and friends is because we both really wanted that moment of announcing his sex and name to everyone after the delivery. We haven't decided on a name yet though!
I was pretty nervous for how our little one was doing after our trip because I wasn't feeling a whole lot of movement, but the ultrasound revealed that I have an anterior placenta which can muffle the feeling of movements. Now that I am a few weeks further along (26 today!) I can feel the movement much better and it is very comforting!
I haven't been working much at all, this year I am a substitute teacher. There have been a lot of cutbacks in our school system so there were no permanent of temporary jobs available so they placed me on the sub list. Being early in the school year I haven't been working most days as teachers aren't really going off sick or scheduling appointments etc. yet. The extended vacation has been kind of nice. Luckily my husband has a good job so we can financially handle it, but not working means not getting paid and my salary definitely helps us afford the fun stuff in life, like dinners out and epic summer vacations, so hopefully things pick up again soon!
Hope all is well with everyone out there in internet land! I hope to update more regularly now that fall is here and my fun summer travel has come to an end!
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
Ultrasounds, surgery and work insanity!
Yes I know I am a terrible blogger! There has been a lot going on so let me fill you in!
1. We had our 12 week NT ultrasound and everything went great! We are at low risks for all downs syndrome and all the trisomy disorders. Little one is looking good, and was super active, perhaps because I went to my appointment straight from a Zumba class with my students. It maded my pregnancy feel real, I feel like this is actually happening his time. We have started to share the news with family and friends.
2. Work has been kicking my butt. My butt = seriously KICKED! For those of you who don't remember I am a teacher working at a school for pregnant and parenting teen moms. This term I have been working all classes with no prep time at all. I am having a hard time keeping up with all my marking and paper work. On top of that I teach phys ed all afternoon. Now that I have shared my news it's a little easier, but making a pregnant lady do three straight hours of physical activity when all she wants to do is either sleep or puk is just not fair!!
3. My husband had an emergency appendectomy this week. So he is now missing an organ, albeit a somewhat useless organ. He is a pretty tough cookie though! I was so mad, the day he went to emergency they told us around 5pm that he would have surgery late that night or maybe early the next day. I decided to run home and let the dog out so I wouldn't have to come home to a mess and eat some supper. I got back to the hospital about an hour and half later and they had just wheeled him into surgery! I didn't get to see him before he went in and I was so upset. So I'm sitting in a hospital hallway with his mom (who doesn't speak much english) and I start thinking about how I didn't say I love him before surgery and what if something happens to him and I'd have to raise this baby by myself. Basically everything a crazy hormonal lady would think and so I start bawling my eyes out. His mom was trying to comfort me but can't really understand what I am trying to say to her and doesn't really have the words in English to make me feel better. We must have looked crazy. But good news, he is home recovering fine and all those tears were for nothing. I am just exhausted because all the slack my hubby was picking up with dog walking and grocery shopping and house cleaning is now back on my shoulders.
4. I am finished my position at the school where I am teaching at the end of the month and am so sad. I have grown really close to all my students. In a specialized setting like this you reall get to know them on a personal level. We are into our exam week now, our last teaching day was yesterday. At the assembly they gave me flowers and a card. Of course I started crying, and then some of the girls I am close to started crying and there I was again in the middle of a public crying spectacle! I knew it was only a one year position as I was covering someone's maternity leave, but I don't think I realised how sad I would be to go.
I am 14 weeks now and slowly starting to feel better. Getting some energy back, sporting a little pregnancy bump and looking forward to the summer and a fabulous vacation with my handsome hubby. Either a bleated honeymoon or perhaps a babymoon? Have a good week, hopefully it won't be as long between posts this time!
1. We had our 12 week NT ultrasound and everything went great! We are at low risks for all downs syndrome and all the trisomy disorders. Little one is looking good, and was super active, perhaps because I went to my appointment straight from a Zumba class with my students. It maded my pregnancy feel real, I feel like this is actually happening his time. We have started to share the news with family and friends.
2. Work has been kicking my butt. My butt = seriously KICKED! For those of you who don't remember I am a teacher working at a school for pregnant and parenting teen moms. This term I have been working all classes with no prep time at all. I am having a hard time keeping up with all my marking and paper work. On top of that I teach phys ed all afternoon. Now that I have shared my news it's a little easier, but making a pregnant lady do three straight hours of physical activity when all she wants to do is either sleep or puk is just not fair!!
3. My husband had an emergency appendectomy this week. So he is now missing an organ, albeit a somewhat useless organ. He is a pretty tough cookie though! I was so mad, the day he went to emergency they told us around 5pm that he would have surgery late that night or maybe early the next day. I decided to run home and let the dog out so I wouldn't have to come home to a mess and eat some supper. I got back to the hospital about an hour and half later and they had just wheeled him into surgery! I didn't get to see him before he went in and I was so upset. So I'm sitting in a hospital hallway with his mom (who doesn't speak much english) and I start thinking about how I didn't say I love him before surgery and what if something happens to him and I'd have to raise this baby by myself. Basically everything a crazy hormonal lady would think and so I start bawling my eyes out. His mom was trying to comfort me but can't really understand what I am trying to say to her and doesn't really have the words in English to make me feel better. We must have looked crazy. But good news, he is home recovering fine and all those tears were for nothing. I am just exhausted because all the slack my hubby was picking up with dog walking and grocery shopping and house cleaning is now back on my shoulders.
4. I am finished my position at the school where I am teaching at the end of the month and am so sad. I have grown really close to all my students. In a specialized setting like this you reall get to know them on a personal level. We are into our exam week now, our last teaching day was yesterday. At the assembly they gave me flowers and a card. Of course I started crying, and then some of the girls I am close to started crying and there I was again in the middle of a public crying spectacle! I knew it was only a one year position as I was covering someone's maternity leave, but I don't think I realised how sad I would be to go.
I am 14 weeks now and slowly starting to feel better. Getting some energy back, sporting a little pregnancy bump and looking forward to the summer and a fabulous vacation with my handsome hubby. Either a bleated honeymoon or perhaps a babymoon? Have a good week, hopefully it won't be as long between posts this time!
Tuesday, 24 May 2011
9 week ultrasound
The prenatal clinic I (will) go to doesn't see patients until somewhere between 10 and 12 weeks and the first ultrasound scheduled is either a NT ultrasound (if you want one) or a dating scan both of which take place around 12 weeks based on your last menstrual period (LMP). I didn't think I could wait that long to check and see how things are doing. So I booked a private ultrasound for this past Sunday. It's not a diagnostic clinic so I don't have official medical confirmation, but things are looking good.
Based on my LMP I should have been 9 weeks 3 days and the baby looked more like 9 weeks exactly or maybe even a few days less. There was a healthy heartbeat though (174) and the technician said that there was nothing to suggest that there was anything abnormal about this pregnancy.
I really wanted an ultrasound now because last time I had spotting at 11.5 weeks and I had an ultrasound that revealed baby had died around 8 or 8.5 weeks. I didn't think I could go through that again, it was really upsetting to me that I was wakling around for 3 weeks with all of my pregnancy symptoms being all happy and announcing on Christmas Day to our family when really things had already gone horribly wrong. So this recent ultrasound means I have at least gotten to that point with this pregnancy and maybe past it.
My husband is super relieved and was teary when he heard/saw the heartbeat. For me for some reason, while I am a little relieved it didn't give me as much peace of mind as I hoped. We had an ultrasound at 6 weeks for the last pregnancy and saw the heartbeat that time too and what the ultrasound tech and doctor both called a normal pregnancy, and that obviously went wrong a few weeks later. I am still scared this could happen again.
My fingers and toes are crossed that everything is ok this time. I have my first prenatal appointment on June 1st, so just over a week away. At that point they will schedule our NT ultrasound for about a week after that. Like I said I started spotting at 11.5 weeks last time, so I think that will be another big milestone for me to start relaxing. Please send me and my little one all your prayers and good wishes! The more good karma for us out in the universe the better!
Based on my LMP I should have been 9 weeks 3 days and the baby looked more like 9 weeks exactly or maybe even a few days less. There was a healthy heartbeat though (174) and the technician said that there was nothing to suggest that there was anything abnormal about this pregnancy.
I really wanted an ultrasound now because last time I had spotting at 11.5 weeks and I had an ultrasound that revealed baby had died around 8 or 8.5 weeks. I didn't think I could go through that again, it was really upsetting to me that I was wakling around for 3 weeks with all of my pregnancy symptoms being all happy and announcing on Christmas Day to our family when really things had already gone horribly wrong. So this recent ultrasound means I have at least gotten to that point with this pregnancy and maybe past it.
My husband is super relieved and was teary when he heard/saw the heartbeat. For me for some reason, while I am a little relieved it didn't give me as much peace of mind as I hoped. We had an ultrasound at 6 weeks for the last pregnancy and saw the heartbeat that time too and what the ultrasound tech and doctor both called a normal pregnancy, and that obviously went wrong a few weeks later. I am still scared this could happen again.
My fingers and toes are crossed that everything is ok this time. I have my first prenatal appointment on June 1st, so just over a week away. At that point they will schedule our NT ultrasound for about a week after that. Like I said I started spotting at 11.5 weeks last time, so I think that will be another big milestone for me to start relaxing. Please send me and my little one all your prayers and good wishes! The more good karma for us out in the universe the better!
Friday, 13 May 2011
Fences and landscaping
It's Friday! Yay! What is not good about Friday is that one of my students played that super annoying Rebecca Black "Friday" song this morning and ever since then it has been stuck in my head. Grrrr!
This week for me has mostly been about landscaping planning. We took possession of our house last September but it was too late to do anything with the dirt lot that comes standard with a new house. This past weekend we spent time at a few nurseries trying to figure out what (trees, hedges, plants) we want to go where. Who knew that trees were so expensive??? This week we had our fence built, this weekend we are going to plant some hedges and hopefully next Thursday we will have sod installed.
I am most excited about the fence and grass. We have the best dog in the whole planet, but having to take her for a walk on the leash everytime she has to go to the bathroom has not been fun! Even with the fence up having no grass means that we would have to wash her paws everytime she came back into the house if we let her out back there. Luckily for me, my husband has been nice and taking care of all the morning walks so I get a few more minutes of sleep. I guess he knows better than to separate a sick pregnant lady from her bed.
Speaking of the pregnancy, everything has been good so far I think. This week actually went pretty fast considering I am watching each day pass with anticipation. I hit the 8 week mark on Thursday. This coming Tuesday I have a "meet and greet" with a possible new family doctor, so I am hoping I can convince them to give me a referral for an ultrasound for sometime next week (so around 9 weeks pregnant). Otherwise I might just go pay for a private one. Otherwise my first prenatal appointment is June 1st and the 12 week ultrasound would be about a week after that. That feels like forever away! Happy weekend everyone!
This week for me has mostly been about landscaping planning. We took possession of our house last September but it was too late to do anything with the dirt lot that comes standard with a new house. This past weekend we spent time at a few nurseries trying to figure out what (trees, hedges, plants) we want to go where. Who knew that trees were so expensive??? This week we had our fence built, this weekend we are going to plant some hedges and hopefully next Thursday we will have sod installed.
I am most excited about the fence and grass. We have the best dog in the whole planet, but having to take her for a walk on the leash everytime she has to go to the bathroom has not been fun! Even with the fence up having no grass means that we would have to wash her paws everytime she came back into the house if we let her out back there. Luckily for me, my husband has been nice and taking care of all the morning walks so I get a few more minutes of sleep. I guess he knows better than to separate a sick pregnant lady from her bed.
Speaking of the pregnancy, everything has been good so far I think. This week actually went pretty fast considering I am watching each day pass with anticipation. I hit the 8 week mark on Thursday. This coming Tuesday I have a "meet and greet" with a possible new family doctor, so I am hoping I can convince them to give me a referral for an ultrasound for sometime next week (so around 9 weeks pregnant). Otherwise I might just go pay for a private one. Otherwise my first prenatal appointment is June 1st and the 12 week ultrasound would be about a week after that. That feels like forever away! Happy weekend everyone!
Friday, 6 May 2011
busy days and belly bloat
I guess I am a pretty lame blogger, I haven't posted in a little while now. There are two main reasons for this. First being that I have been super sick with a cold all week. You never really appreciate good drugs until you can't take them. I know there are some things that are ok to take when you are preggers, but I'd rather be safe than sorry. I don't want anything bad happening to this little bean in my belly.
The other reason is that my work schedule has been changed. For this last term of classes I am teaching all class periods with no prep time. I only have about 30 minutes for lunch with is often taken up by meetings. Some days I have to pee at 10am and don't get a chance to go until 3:30. Being a teacher has given me a strong bladder. I used to do most of my blog writing in the time just before or just after the school day, but that is mostly filled with prep for class, marking etc. I will try to be better though.
Pregnancy is going pretty well, except for how slowly time is progressing! I am 7 weeks 1 day today. Getting to 12 weeks and the second week of June seem a long way off. For some reason I feel like I am getting big faster. I feel like I am showing, and that any day people will start asking me because it looks so obvious. Actually one of the teachers at my school did ask me the other day. I was off sick on Tuesday and on Wednesday morning she came in and asked if I was off because I had a doctor's appointment because "I had good news to share". I just told her I was off sick with a cold, nothing that exciting to report. Hopefully she believed me, I mean I was legitimately sick.
My doctor told me that sometimes if you get pregnant pretty soon after a miscarriage that you get bigger a little quicker because your body is so used to being pregnant. I don't know if that's true or not, but I really think I am bigger at 7 weeks this time than I was at 7 weeks last time. I keep having this thought that maybe I have twins in there. I don't have any twins in my family or anything, but one of the teachers at my school told me that she had a miscarriage and when she got pregnant again 5 months later it was with twins (who are now teenagers). She didn't have any twins in her family either. I know the chances are so tiny, but for some reason I keep thinking about it. Last pregnancy I kept having this feeling that I would go to my 12 week ultrasound and the baby would be gone, well turns out I had some spotting and found out the baby was gone at an 11.5 week ultrasound. Weird. I guess I will find out how everything is going in June.....again, that is so far away! Seriously!
Ok well I am off to do some work. Have a great weekend everyone!
The other reason is that my work schedule has been changed. For this last term of classes I am teaching all class periods with no prep time. I only have about 30 minutes for lunch with is often taken up by meetings. Some days I have to pee at 10am and don't get a chance to go until 3:30. Being a teacher has given me a strong bladder. I used to do most of my blog writing in the time just before or just after the school day, but that is mostly filled with prep for class, marking etc. I will try to be better though.
Pregnancy is going pretty well, except for how slowly time is progressing! I am 7 weeks 1 day today. Getting to 12 weeks and the second week of June seem a long way off. For some reason I feel like I am getting big faster. I feel like I am showing, and that any day people will start asking me because it looks so obvious. Actually one of the teachers at my school did ask me the other day. I was off sick on Tuesday and on Wednesday morning she came in and asked if I was off because I had a doctor's appointment because "I had good news to share". I just told her I was off sick with a cold, nothing that exciting to report. Hopefully she believed me, I mean I was legitimately sick.
My doctor told me that sometimes if you get pregnant pretty soon after a miscarriage that you get bigger a little quicker because your body is so used to being pregnant. I don't know if that's true or not, but I really think I am bigger at 7 weeks this time than I was at 7 weeks last time. I keep having this thought that maybe I have twins in there. I don't have any twins in my family or anything, but one of the teachers at my school told me that she had a miscarriage and when she got pregnant again 5 months later it was with twins (who are now teenagers). She didn't have any twins in her family either. I know the chances are so tiny, but for some reason I keep thinking about it. Last pregnancy I kept having this feeling that I would go to my 12 week ultrasound and the baby would be gone, well turns out I had some spotting and found out the baby was gone at an 11.5 week ultrasound. Weird. I guess I will find out how everything is going in June.....again, that is so far away! Seriously!
Ok well I am off to do some work. Have a great weekend everyone!
Monday, 25 April 2011
zero patience time warp!
Seriously could time be going any slower lately? Why is it that when you're waiting for something time seems to slow down? I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas morning to arrive. I feel like I have been waiting forever for time to pass to get to the 12 week ultrasound. I check the babybump app on my iphone all the time, 5 weeks and 5 days?!?!? That's it?!?!? Haven't I been waiting for ever already?
I have decided to pay for the early ultrasound, I am thinking that I will book it for around 9 weeks which puts me around May 19th. That still feels like a long ways away, but I'm sure that it will help put my mind at ease for the three weeks until the 12 week scan, that is if everything is going well in there. Fingers and toes crossed!!!
I wish I had a more exciting blog post to share with you guys, but unfortunately nothing exciting has been going on, seriously not that I want drama, but perhaps even a little bit to keep me distracted! Oh I know, a close friend of mine got engaged and asked me to be a bridesmaid. She was thinking of having her wedding either this Christmas or the one after, so I had to tell her about my pregnancy. Since the wedding is where we grew up, which is a very long flight away, there is no way I could come this Christmas as I would be within a week of my due date. She knows about my miscarriage so she was very excited for me. It was nice to be able to tell someone because it's hard to keep the secret.
Well since I have nothing exciting to share I thought I would share a blog I read occasionally to entertain myself, it's http://www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/ I highly recommend it if you are wanting to pass some time!! Have a good week everyone, hopefully I will have more exciting things to report next time!
I have decided to pay for the early ultrasound, I am thinking that I will book it for around 9 weeks which puts me around May 19th. That still feels like a long ways away, but I'm sure that it will help put my mind at ease for the three weeks until the 12 week scan, that is if everything is going well in there. Fingers and toes crossed!!!
I wish I had a more exciting blog post to share with you guys, but unfortunately nothing exciting has been going on, seriously not that I want drama, but perhaps even a little bit to keep me distracted! Oh I know, a close friend of mine got engaged and asked me to be a bridesmaid. She was thinking of having her wedding either this Christmas or the one after, so I had to tell her about my pregnancy. Since the wedding is where we grew up, which is a very long flight away, there is no way I could come this Christmas as I would be within a week of my due date. She knows about my miscarriage so she was very excited for me. It was nice to be able to tell someone because it's hard to keep the secret.
Well since I have nothing exciting to share I thought I would share a blog I read occasionally to entertain myself, it's http://www.hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/ I highly recommend it if you are wanting to pass some time!! Have a good week everyone, hopefully I will have more exciting things to report next time!
Tuesday, 19 April 2011
Holy giant flood of emotions batman!
I was driving to work this morning, well my husband was driving I guess I was passengering (ok not a word, but you get the idea). I only specify the difference because I was checking my email and I don't want you to think I was driving while staring at my phone. Anyway, I was checking my email on my iphone and I got an email from my sister. She sent me an ultrasound photo from her 12 week scan that she just had done. Well holy giant flood of emotions batman!
HAPPY - for her and her husband, I'm glad her pregnancy is going the way it should and she her risk of miscarriage is way down.
JEALOUS - I am jealous because I want to get to a healthy 12 week scan so badly!
SCARED - seeing her scan made me realise that I am so scared about not making it that far, my heart is seriously pounding with anxiety
SAD - I'm not going to lie I threw a little poor me pity party, I am still so very sad about the loss of our first baby and I'm not sure when that will start feeling better. Perhaps once I get that healthy scan and can move onto excitement about this pregnancy.
EXCITED - now that I'm pregnant again (will be 5 weeks this Thursday) it's only about 7 weeks until I might get to see the same thing
IMPATIENT - seriously can't I pay someone somewhere to make time go faster
So that was how I felt on my drive to work this morning and pretty much the rest of today. I am feeling so many emotions all at the same time that it's like my body doesn't know what to do with itself! I wish I could just hibernate and not think about it for a few weeks.
The pregnancy clinic I go to doesn't do anything want to see me until almost 12 weeks and then your 12 week scan is the first one you have. I had a healthy 6 week scan last time, the baby died around 8.5 weeks and we found out at 11.5 weeks. I am torn between just waiting until the 12 week scan or paying for a private scan earlier. There is a place in the city that does a basic 2D scan for 90 bucks. I was thinking about doing that around 9.5 or 10 weeks......so torn. If you have an opinion please leave me a comment and tell me what you think. Early scan or wait until 12 weeks????
HAPPY - for her and her husband, I'm glad her pregnancy is going the way it should and she her risk of miscarriage is way down.
JEALOUS - I am jealous because I want to get to a healthy 12 week scan so badly!
SCARED - seeing her scan made me realise that I am so scared about not making it that far, my heart is seriously pounding with anxiety
SAD - I'm not going to lie I threw a little poor me pity party, I am still so very sad about the loss of our first baby and I'm not sure when that will start feeling better. Perhaps once I get that healthy scan and can move onto excitement about this pregnancy.
EXCITED - now that I'm pregnant again (will be 5 weeks this Thursday) it's only about 7 weeks until I might get to see the same thing
IMPATIENT - seriously can't I pay someone somewhere to make time go faster
So that was how I felt on my drive to work this morning and pretty much the rest of today. I am feeling so many emotions all at the same time that it's like my body doesn't know what to do with itself! I wish I could just hibernate and not think about it for a few weeks.
The pregnancy clinic I go to doesn't do anything want to see me until almost 12 weeks and then your 12 week scan is the first one you have. I had a healthy 6 week scan last time, the baby died around 8.5 weeks and we found out at 11.5 weeks. I am torn between just waiting until the 12 week scan or paying for a private scan earlier. There is a place in the city that does a basic 2D scan for 90 bucks. I was thinking about doing that around 9.5 or 10 weeks......so torn. If you have an opinion please leave me a comment and tell me what you think. Early scan or wait until 12 weeks????
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